the answer comes at 1 in the morning everything makes sense. Childhood it has been staring me in the face. Anna's toys are all I see all day long. Bright childish rainbows. When I was little my brothers room has a rainbow in it. My mother is a preschool teacher all these things they display in classrooms, anna and her stacking cups, shapes, fundamentals for young kids I am surrounded by it and it finally hits me when all this crap in rainbow has been around me and why all of a sudden I kept thinking one thing after another. I had so much deja vu and one thing kept leading to another. Now I know why. all these things are connected..... finally an explanation I was going nuts trying to process how many things I see on a daily basis. all these bright stimulus have finally made me crack... all these old toys are stored in the mudroom as a play room where my mom would bring things in to teach kids with. Ha staring me in the face.